I have come to marvel at why it took so long for me to stand back and see the bigger picture, especially when something made me sit down and try to record every ‘incident’ I’d ever seen or felt. It began to dawn on me that it had probably started very early in life. My earliest and most vivid childhood memory, and one that I always assumed was a bad dream, suddenly made me wonder. Other ‘bad dream’ incidents sprang to the front of my mind and I began to see a pattern. What if I hadn’t been dreaming at all, but I was too young to understand what I was seeing?
It might help if I give a little background information at this point. For twenty years I worked in Finance, my mind enjoys the logical processes required in that environment. I like investigating the detail and identifying patterns and anomalies. Looking back at my life, I have recently come to recognise that I have a great capacity for ‘filing away’ things that don’t conform, or aren’t easily explainable because the standard rules do not apply. My tidy mind has treated anything I consider to be ‘out of the ordinary’, as interesting and buried it deep somewhere in the attic of my mind. Perhaps awaiting a new set of rules that, once learnt, will eventually allow me to unravel the mystery and explain away the seemingly unexplainable.
Being a Gemini my makeup is complex and I have no problem whatsoever in acknowledging astrological influences on my life. The logic behind this being that astrology has a clear basis upon which a person’s chart is drawn. It has a set of rules that are applied, giving an outcome that can therefore be assumed to be reasonably personal and relevant. That satisfies my mind and I have found it to be incredibly helpful over the years. Even in accounting terms there is a little lassitude for personal interpretation, but that is safely constrained by the rules. The fixed parameters within which the financial environment operates, still requires an element of imagination to inspire the problem solving bit. So it is with astrology, some of the more general information can be a little bland, but with interpretation even general traits can become meaningful.
What I’m hoping to demonstrate to you, is that I’m an ordinary person, I believe of sound mind and until 2004 regarded myself as healthily sceptical. By that I mean that I was hesitant to accept anything, even though I had experienced many things for which I could not find a simple explanation.
As I begin the process of publishing articles about my experiences, many of which will feature in future planned novels, you will see how commited I was to being a sceptic especially considering some of the things I have witnessed throughout my life! I was married to an even bigger sceptic and the day that changed was the day my husband related his own story to me and after that we started comparing notes.
This is number one in a series of articles I will be publishing here over the coming months. If you have enjoyed reading this I hope you will come back for more!
Regards, Linn